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ʟᴀɴ ᴡᴀɴɢᴊɪ | 蓝忘机 ([personal profile] downswing) wrote2021-06-20 12:15 am

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lan wangji
missives | encounters

weifinder: (worried | is the day i expire)

[personal profile] weifinder 2022-06-29 07:23 am (UTC)(link)
Lan Zhan...
weifinder: (welp | woah i gotta keep moving on)

[personal profile] weifinder 2022-06-29 07:24 am (UTC)(link)
( it, hm. he blinks, slow and feline, considering those words as if they were written in the familiar hand of the man who'd otherwise written them. a different sort of missive, if they were leaving letters on each other's desks, or tucked under pillows. )
weifinder: (huh? | for a reason)

[personal profile] weifinder 2022-06-29 07:25 am (UTC)(link)
Do you plan...
weifinder: (ask | weighing on your mind)

[personal profile] weifinder 2022-06-29 07:25 am (UTC)(link)
On cultivating my selfishness for your attention?
weifinder: (smile | run now)

[personal profile] weifinder 2022-06-29 07:26 am (UTC)(link)
Jesting aside, if you say I should, I will.
weifinder: (rehydrating | i'm on my way)

[personal profile] weifinder 2022-06-29 07:27 am (UTC)(link)
Do you trust me, Lan Zhan?
weifinder: (wipe | i shake off the pain)

waiting in their lifeboat nest

[personal profile] weifinder 2022-06-29 08:06 am (UTC)(link)
( a scroll, tied with blue ribbon. there are pages within it, seven in all. each an ink drawing of lan xichen;

1. presiding, official, as a younger man, at the time of their entry into the finishing school of gusu from before the war;

2. smiling with the ease of a man grown used to it, holding a tea cup in hand, relaxed but present still in awareness of his position;

3. softer, in a moment suggesting for wei wuxian to go to the cold springs, apology and awareness and a kindness that he bled more red than his heart's blood in his face and eyes;

4. the look of him as he looked upon his brother, the fondness and the pride and the hopes, none pointed, all soft and presumptive;

5. the exhaustion of a man whose foundations had been so shattered he was unaware of his feet being on any kind of ground;

6. lan xichen, on his flue, playing a melody that wei wuxian remembers now, could play if asked, as he remembers so many things that are and are not inconsequential, forgetting others he certainly aligns as inconsequential;

7. sitting, serious and earnest, wine cup in hand, asking for wei wuxian to do the impossible, or to be as he is, and to leave lan zhan out of it.

there is no summation he can offer, only moments pulled out of memory in no order to make sense of them, these facets of one man, a sect leader, a brother, a nephew, a human whose blood-sworn brothers had torn each other apart, and he, unaware of what needed saving. of there being such deficits in the first.

wei wuxian leaves no note. he simply knows his husband sleeps sooner than he does, and with the haunts that stalk the ships, with the events that stir and shake, these are inks of a time and place divided. protected in their oilskin wrapping, tucked under the bench, safe from easy, errant steps, but not all things.

lan xichen, remembered, living man that he remains, by wei wuxian.
)
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[personal profile] cairhien 2022-06-29 04:09 pm (UTC)(link)
The Dark One. Though he's imprisoned that prison will fall.
weifinder: (headache | ain't no knocking me over)

[personal profile] weifinder 2022-07-01 06:06 am (UTC)(link)
Do you trust me?
weifinder: (ask | forces of gravity taking me)

[personal profile] weifinder 2022-07-01 08:15 am (UTC)(link)
Then as one husband to another, I won't need to claim that right anymore than you will.

( what he does not want, and does not need, is more than one spouse, one lover, one head on a pillow by his own. that he does, in fact, want lan zhan there, for his own sake, is a fierce and honeyed tincture lining his stomach, warming like alcohol swallowed down, down, down.

over a year ago, he's aware now that his own wants would be pale in comparison to the understanding he has now. to the faith he's firmed in standing, and the ridiculous man who has compulsively married him on both sides of his lace woven life.
)
weifinder: (yobro | you're who i believe in)

[personal profile] weifinder 2022-07-01 09:01 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, I've got those second things. Like having you sleep in with me on a proper bed someday!
weifinder: (right | on empty promises)

[personal profile] weifinder 2022-07-01 04:12 pm (UTC)(link)
I wouldn't say people are ever simple, but our wants can be. So can our jealousies. That's just less part of my nature, and more part of yours. We balance.
weifinder: (smile | run now)

[personal profile] weifinder 2022-07-01 04:34 pm (UTC)(link)
When we return, I'll appreciate that. Just as the simple things will still hold immense value to me.
weifinder: (wheedle | is right here)

[personal profile] weifinder 2022-07-01 04:58 pm (UTC)(link)
One overcast day we might get another half shichen out of you!
weifinder: (ask | so you're keeping all your secrets)

[personal profile] weifinder 2022-07-01 05:16 pm (UTC)(link)
I'll ask Sizhui when you woke, of course!

( point in fact, husband: he sleeps deeply next to you. )