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[personal profile] thedreamer 2023-06-20 10:43 pm (UTC)(link)
A moment of joy at his being here does your brother no harm. You might feel joy again in his presence. Would you be ashamed for it too? Do you think you need to control it?
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[personal profile] thedreamer 2023-06-24 06:38 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't. I won't. Joy should be felt and shared.

[ Because he's not unaccustomed to the awful things, the worst things. A constant in his long life. This time around, he's choosing joy as much as he can. ]
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[personal profile] thedreamer 2023-06-25 10:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Has it? Do you think it cost your brother when you felt happy to see him?
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[personal profile] thedreamer 2023-06-30 11:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Your gladness at his presence has...what, marked him in some way? Bit slow sometimes, me.
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[personal profile] thedreamer 2023-07-01 07:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Occasionally. Then I learn.

[ A laborious admission. ]

Does it cost your brother or does it cost you? Or both?
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[personal profile] thedreamer 2023-07-02 01:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[ And the Doctor, for all his own deflecting and not wanting to speak of things, misses the very obvious sign of the same boundaries in others. Where he might still push anyway, though, he won't now. ]

Then we won't. And I'll just be glad you're safe. But you have nothing to be ashamed for. On the official record. There! I had to say it one more time. Now that's me leaving it, walking past it, never to be spoken of again. See? Me learning.

[ Probably. Maybe? ]

I'm still bringing you cake. I'll drop it off by the cave and we don't even have to make eye contact or we can do a wave and a nod from a distance. Big fan of those. Eat at your leisure, it keeps a good while.