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lan wangji
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[weifinder]

So you continue to make excuses, I see, and find justifications where there are none.

You wish to be pursued further? Wooed more?

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( A moment. Another. How to express — )


I am too happy.

[weifinder]

( exhalation, deflating with a sigh and the strange feeling of a knot of affection and whatever other emotions forming in his chest. how, and why, aren't currently necessary to examine. neither is the fond exasperation.

he gets this. really, he does. )

Happiness is like the tides, less like the river. Flowing in, ebbing out, yet always there, always potential, low or high. Not the steady flow with interruptions by season, nearly always equal.

There is this happiness, and tomorrow's, and yesterday's. You are more full with happiness today. I'm glad for it, and if you're less full of happiness tomorrow, I'm glad for whatever happiness you still find.

Indulge today. Grow round and fat and pleased with it. No fear that it changes, as everything changes, and changes yet again.

Come. Bathe. Drink. The world will swallow of us what it can. Let us raise cups to each other and swallow first.

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...no.

( He knows the way of it, the childishness of his veneer. )

When our happiness brims, it is stolen.

[weifinder]

Don't steal it from yourself, Lan Zhan.

We'll become better thieves. Take it back for ourselves however many times we must.

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You must think me foolish.

[weifinder]

No more than I am, ah? We're men who understand loss.

I think it's harder, to understand we can have people to keep, too. Who want to stay.

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You will. Stay.

[weifinder]

Yes. Won't you?

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You snore.

[weifinder]

Hah! As if you know, do you know how hard you are to wake up? If it's in your ridiculous morning waking, you deserve it!

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Then, I must.

[weifinder]

... so you like your bed cold, ah?

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Do you wish to be pursued?

[weifinder]

I enjoy it when it's you, for this, otherwise no, can't really say I do.

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Run, if you wish given chase.

[weifinder]

I'm running, I'm running!

( as in he's handling the barley tea, foot tapping the ground as he does. very run, much speed. )

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Lest you wish to concede early.

[weifinder]

Am I not meant to enjoy capitulation?

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Stakes?

[weifinder]

What ones do you have in mind?

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Caught within quarter of a shi, wake to witness sunrise beside me.

[weifinder]

( ... the temptation, for a moment, to actually run to avoid early morning wake ups. )

Terms accepted!

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If caught after a quarter of a shi, Wei Ying earns




( A moment, this physically pains him. )



nest privileges.

[weifinder]

You'd still get rid of everything the next day!