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lan wangji
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( ...................... he's touched and also vaguely uncomfortable he's this Known. )

That may in fact be true, yes.

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He will not, in this.

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Then I'll try to be brave.

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You have never known a day of cowardice.

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When it comes to the ones I care for most, I have.

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But learned.

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Little by little. I fear his loss more.

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Sizhui?

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I've mourned him once.

I have no plans to do so again.

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You will not. No need.

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Can we just die peacefully together in our white haired years?

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Impossible. Wei Ying refuses death.

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He embraces life, so where are you? My arms are empty. ☹️

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Your arms can only carry silk.

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Oh? I say they can carry you across a threshold!

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And sink thereafter.

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It's a swoon, and it'd be romantic, you and me, and some comfortable surface I can collapse us both on!

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The floor.

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Comfortable for me!

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A pauper once, a pauper forever.

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No, no, I mean my version of comfortable, so more than a floor. Comfort vs straw on stone, you know how it is!

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You should not have needed to.

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No, I shouldn't have. But I did put myself there, as much as anyone else did. These days, if I knew what I do now about myself and people, I'd not push so hard to make sure I was the only one waiting to fall.

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You would. Your kindly nature.

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Not limitless.