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lan wangji
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That song bore ill omens.

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That song settled me. Let it settle you. Let go of what I didn't remember, for the sake of what I can.

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It is a song of longing.

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I want to hear the words.

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A child's shamelessness.



( Quite possibly embarrassed. )

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Only for you, Lan Zhan!

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The verses. My own. Shameless in innocence. Sentimental.

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I want your shameless sentiment, young and innocent, old and jaded. All of it, because it's yours.

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You will flush.

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Is that meant to be discouraging?

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It lacks refinement.

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Lan Zhan. Husband. He whom with I walk in step, as we learn.

I want your words. Your song. Your longing.

Refined or not.

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Wei Ying offers no concession of his own.

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Have you asked?

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Must I?

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That's in the telling of what you want, moment to moment.

Sing to me. Sleep with me. When there's less sand, sleep with me.

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Less sand, fewer spectators in vicinity.

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Yes, well, I'm not of a mind to make that a particular performance. Unless you are?

1/2

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Brazen.

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It feels a simmered thing.

As if, after decades, I shall not know the man I am at the end of longing.

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I, for one, shall like to learn that man. I believe you will too, Lan Zhan. You've never been a man to deny change.

Only try not to be displeased with me, I've no experience and am an enthusiastic learner! Let me catch up to you.

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( Catch up with...?

...never mind. )

We learned the sword together. What difference?

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We should probably aim for less blood.

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Shall we?

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Yes. Maybe even start early, with less sand inviting attempts?

( he'll have to think hard on what that entails but he is going to catch up with his husband's questionable experiences )